Monday, July 9, 2007

It's been awhile!!

Wow...I really underestimated how little time I would have to myself these days! This is one of the first times I've had lately to actually sit down and even THINK about posting on here. I'll try to get as much in as I can before my little one wakes up crying to eat!! HOPEFULLY I have about a half hour left before that happens.

For starters, motherhood is wonderful. And not-so-wonderful. There are times when I'm on cloud 9 and there are times when I don't know if I'm cut out for the whole motherhood thing. Now don't get me wrong-- I love little Alyson to pieces--- but sometimes I am just so overwhelmed and frustrated, and I just don't know WHAT to do! The past few days were that way... I just became so overwhelmed with everything, and it seemed like no matter what I did to soothe her, Aly still cried and fussed. She's not colicky, as far as I know... usually she only cries when she wants to eat... but yesterday was just one of those days when the crying....doesn't.....stop. It really started getting to me and Russ, and that led to us bickering, and ME crying, and then I realized that it was time for me to stop trying to be Supermom and do everything myself, and admit that I needed a helping hand with Alyson.

Russ ended up taking her to my parents for a few hours, and it was just what I needed. I hadn't been able to get anything done in the house, because she'd cry just as I was getting into doing something, so I had a chance to get some housework done. I felt like a bad mom at first due to sending her to my parents' house, but they've been more than willing to help out, and I guess I just haven't taken people up on their offers because I feel like I need to do everything myself. The frustration (and lack of sleep) just built up and built up until yesterday I was at my breaking point. I needed sleep, I was upset because I was jumping down Russ's throat for stupid things and couldn't help it....ugh.

Today things are much better though. Aly fussed around midnight so I fed her, then rocked her back to sleep...then she woke up again at 2:30 and 4:30. After that, she let me sleep until 9am. 9AM! I get so excited when I get about 4 or so hours in between a feeding. It's amazing how our perspective changes when we become parents-- I used to treasure 8 hours of sleep, now I'm thrilled to death with 4 or 5. 6 or 7 is truly heaven....lol.

Breaktime... I hear a baby crying... :-)

Alright, I'm back.

But like I said, today's much better. I feel more relaxed. I just had to admit to myself that it was just TIME FOR A BREAK. I had my mom and Russ's mom helping out for the first week, then Russ and I felt more comfortable so we've pretty much been on our own since then. (Still with plenty of visits from the proud grandparents though!)

The first week was such a big adjustment though. It was no longer about me and Russ, but instead all our attention is focused on Aly. Having a baby really changes you and teaches you alot about yourself, by far! I'm just so in love with little Alyson. I can't stop staring at her! Every little thing she does just seems absolutely adorable, and she's already changing so much everyday! I look back at her first picture from the hospital, and she looks so different already! It's hard to believe that she'll be 3 weeks old on Thursday. Before I know it, I'll be talking about her being 6 months old!! Geesh.

Well, Aly's fussing again, so it must be feeding time. I hear her sucking on her fingers... she sounds like Maggie Simpson. LOL.

Before I go, I want to post the link to Alyson's webpage on the hospital's Web Nursery site. Feel free to leave comments ;-)

http://www.growingfamily.com/webnursery/babypage_view.asp?URLID=7O9N8E8U4J

Have a great day! I'll post more as soon as I can!

8 comments:

erin said...

I'm so glad to see an update from you!

I'll keep you guys in my prayer as you settle into new routines and I hope that you're able to get rest and everything done that you want.

I'm glad that your parents helped with Aly and let you have a little break--it sounds like it was just what was needed!!

Hope you're having a great day!!

Love,
Erin

LCP said...

Gosh, I remember all of those feelings and emotions. Babies are not easy...anyone who thinks it will make their lives/relationships/marriage easier, has it all wrong. It makes it different and you have to learn all over again how to do life. You are right, it is exciting and overwhelming all at the same time.

Jodi said...

Yay, you're back!!! I can't believe Aly's already going to be three weeks old! Holy crap!

I'm glad things are a little better for you today. I'm sure it's so hard at times....I'm about to find out!!!

Mrs. Taco said...

I figured you were super busy. :o) I remember how it was when Mackenna was first born. I'm glad to hear that things are going so well for you. That (the whole don't be afraid to accept help) is one thing that I wish every new mother learns. LOL It is so much easier on your mental (and physical) health when you accept help! LOL :o) Take care and I hope that things continue to go well for you three.

Zoe D. said...

I don't know of any super moms! Take the help if your burnt out. It'll be better for both of you in the long run.

Jenny said...

I am so glad to hear that the first few weeks are going well. Trust me, it gets easier! And smart move taking the help from your parents. Always take help--it helps to keep your sanity!

Kristen Miller said...

Hey doll! Yeah I was lucky to get 1 post out every 2 weeks while I was at home. Today's my first day back at work. :(

It really can get stressful and overwhelming. Take help when offered. Take long baths and showers. You and Russ give each other breaks when you can. That's about all the tips I have for you now...let me know if you think of any. ;)

I want to see some new pictures!

Platinum Rose said...

I wish I could offer you some mom-to-mom words of wisdom, but seeing as how I am not a mom myself yet, I can't! I hope you start to adjust more soon, I imagine it will only get better, easier, and less stressful. I would think that the first few weeks are the biggest adjustment, and the hardest emotionally to handle. I will be hoping it gets easier and less stressful for you! You sound like you are doing just fine being a new Mommy to me! Don't be so hard on yourself - you can't be supermom!